The Journey to the Authentic Me

For me, September will forever mark the beginning of a new chapter. I have decided to no longer celebrate New Year's Eve. This is because September 11th holds a significant meaning in my heart, not due to the tragic events of the plane hijackings and the twin towers' collapse that reshaped our lives collectively. At the time, I was a 21-year-old serving in the Navy in Bahrain, the Middle East, and have memories of that dreadful day, although that's not the sole reason for my sentiment.

Perhaps in a final effort to undermine me, or perhaps out of ignorance, it seems deliberately unkind to dismiss a veteran from their job who was on active duty during September 11th. Without going into specifics, I can reveal that the parting words spoken to me were, “I am incompetent in every single thing I do.” And with that, a new chapter in my life began, my friends.

Despite liking most of my co-workers, I was in a job that I despised, leading to a hostile environment that caused me to lose 30 pounds in just 3 months and experience hair loss. I was determined to stay for the benefits and pay, believing it was preferable to stick with the familiar devil rather than an unknown one. I kept this experience mostly to myself due to feelings of shame and guilt, having been manipulated into thinking I was incapable of success. While acknowledging my shortcomings in the role, the constant stress and walking on eggshells made it impossible for me to excel.

On September 11th, 2023, at 2 pm, my life changed. I had a premonition that initially seemed far-fetched but turned out to hold truth. The night before, I had a dream that felt intuitive. In the morning at 8 am, I shared the dream with a colleague, who dismissed it as an overreaction since she hadn't heard anything related to the situation . Nonetheless, I kept the text conversation where I insisted, "It felt real to me." By 3 pm, I received a message from her exclaiming, "I'm shocked, you actually predicted it." My intuition has consistently been a reliable compass whenever I listen to it. I possess a certain understanding of things that I can't quite explain, but it's always there.

After making positive changes in my life, my old habits naturally faded away. I acknowledge that I am a work in progress, not perfect, but content. With the new moon rising at 4:55 this morning, I urge you to be honest about your aspirations and take concrete steps towards achieving them. The energy of Virgo can assist in removing physical and mental obstacles hindering the creation of your desired life. Dedicate time to writing, creating a vision board, or verbalizing your deepest desires to manifest them. Through meditation and visualization, envision yourself reaching your highest potential and fulfilling your life's purpose. Ignoring your intuition may lead to a transformative moment, not for the faint-hearted, but a catalyst for spiritual growth. Let the new moon motivate you - life is short, so seize the opportunity.